LJ
10.25.2011
Happy 1st Birthday, Benjamin!
LJ
Written by Laura Jean 1 comments
2.01.2011
Trip Down Memory Lane
We went to the doctor today for a check-up. Benjamin weighs EIGHT pounds! I was so happy I could have jumped up and down right there in the office. :) Silly as it may be, there is something about each ounce and pound he gains that makes me feel proud. You see, I do my very best to keep my milk supply up and stuff him full at every opportunity.They told me that weight gain may be one of Benjamin's biggest challenges resulting from his prematurity. At times, this feels like a daunting task... like it's all I do. I exist to produce milk and feed it to Benjamin... So, needless to say, I cherish these moments of weight gain news.
After his appointment, we went upstairs to visit the NICU for the first and last time since he graduated over a month ago. They were so happy to see him again, and that made my heart smile. We pulled him out of his carseat and and passed him around, spreading the joy that only babies bring.
I came across this clever poem months ago while I was reading a book on premature infants. I'd like to share it with you as its perfect words echo the very thoughts and feelings that Mark and I experienced. Enjoy!

When I first saw you, kid, you were tiny and thin
And slimy and red and your head was mushed in.
I said to your mother, “He looks kind of sloppy,
And two pounds four ounces ain’t big for a crappie.”
But something about you, the look in your eyes,
Said you fully intended to grow to full size.
They slapped your backside and you let out a cry,
And I said, “We will keep him, at least we shall try.”
Some babies are born in nine months, by the clock.
Some babies are born, and they sit up and talk.
Some babies are born, and no doctor is there.
But some babies come in on a wing and a prayer.
Poor little fetus as big as your hand.
Poor little fish thrown up on dry land.
Who came in late April though he had till July,
Too small to live and too precious to die.
They shipped you downstairs to the big Neonatal
Intensive Care Unit’s computerized cradle
And attached you to wires and stuck you with tubes
Monitored closely by digital cubes.
And thanks to the latest neonatal therapeusis
And regular basting with greases from gooses
And hot chicken soup intravenously fed
You did not fade away but grew up instead.
We’ll always remember the months that you spent
With tubes in your head in the oxygen tent
And the mask on your face, the wires attached.
Sweet little baby who was only half hatched.
I’m sure you’ll grow up and mature and extend
To six feet six inches and become a tight end.
But I’ll always remember each doctor and nurse in
The NICU who helped make you a person.
The kid who crash landed, who was carried away,
Who survived it, this bundle we bring home today.
~ Garrison Keillor ~
Written by Laura Jean 2 comments
Topics: Baby, Motherhood, NICU, Prematurity
12.17.2010
Life in the NICU
Today, Benjamin Anthony is two days shy of being eight weeks old. If he was still in the womb, I'd be 35 weeks pregnant... But now, he's just about to come home from his long, long stay in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit! I'll do my best to give you a glimpse of what our life has been like since his birth. This whole experience is unlike any I've ever had before... and my cup overflows.
Benjamin weighed just 2 pounds, 9 ounces when he was born and all of his systems were still immature. Luckily, I'd known since 22 weeks gestation that I was at risk of premature labor and was given steroids to help speed his development should he arrive ahead of schedule. Sure enough, he came at just 27 weeks and 3 days.
I had no idea what to expect. I was first able to see him a couple of hours after delivery. All I could see was his little body. All ten fingers and toes, and his tiny chest moving up and down with each breath. I felt like I couldn't really see his face because his eyes were covered with a mask to protect him from the phototherapy used to lower his biliruben levels (toxins in the blood that cause jaundice). He had so many wires and tubes covering his little body. He was hooked up to a ventilator for the first 24 hours to help him breathe; he had two lines inserted into the veins of the umbilical cord--one to feed him nutrients and another to continuously measure his blood pressure; he had an IV in his foot used for drawing blood; and monitors covering him to keep track of his breaths, heart rate, temperature and oxygen levels. It was extremely intimidating...
The first week was intense. We had to get used to constantly hearing the alarms and beeping noises of the NICU. It was hard not to be overly concerned each time his equipment notified the nurses of something. It was very unfamiliar. The day after he was born, the doctors happily reported that he had been breathing over the ventilator the entire 24 hours he'd been alive, so they confidently took him off of it and put him on Vapotherm--a heated mixture of humidity and oxygen to keep him comfortable and help him breathe. Then, a few days after birth, they discovered that he had a Patent Ductus Arteriosus or PDA. Simply put, an artery in his heart that should have closed shortly after birth hadn't. Treatment options included administering medication (indomethacin) or doing surgery. Surgery meant a long trip to Hawaii because there are no neonatal surgeons in Okinawa. We anxiously prayed and prayed that God would spare us from such risky travel and allow the medication to work. And he did! The PDA disappeared with two doses and God answered our prayer. I was able to hold him at four days old. Kangaroo Care they call it... holding him skin-to-skin. My heart almost melted right out of my chest.
The next several weeks were full of surprises. Benjamin only progressed, and with the exception of occassionally being put back under phototherapy, he never took a step back. He began metabolizing breastmilk through a tube in his tummy; he continued to gain weight; he required less and less oxygen and eventually moved off the Vapotherm and onto just the nasal cannula (room-temperature oxygen); he even began maintaining his own temperature. He no longer needed medicine, so they took the IV out. Each day seemed like more good news and it was hard to remember the words they told us, "Take each day one at a time... two steps forward, one step back."
Then, Thanksgiving Day, I noticed that Benjamin was acting rather cranky. He was irritable and having more episodes of bradycardia (extremely low heart rate levels). Preemies often experience bradycardia as a result of their immaturity, but he seemed to be having more than normal and even some apnea. The doctors also noticed that he wasn't acting like the same little boy, and did some tests only to discover that he had a urinary tract infection. It was so sad to see that IV go back in his little body. But a week of antibiotics seemed to do the trick and he was back to his normal self.
Soon after his UTI was resolved, he came off the oxygen completely; so that means that he's been able to breathe room air for weeks now! We were even able to start bottle feeding and finally the last tube came out. Now, he is wire-free and tubeless. :)
And, Grandma Marilyn came all the way to Okinawa to visit him!
With God's help, Benjamin has jumped over every hurdle in his way. Mark and I want to say thank you to all of you who have gotten on your knees for our sweet boy and lifted him up to the Lord; and for all your love and support and encouragement during this rough time. We are simply in love with him and in awe of God for even making little Benjamin a blink in our eye.
The doctor's hope to have him home sometime next week! Thanks again, and we'll keep you posted!
Mark & Laura
Written by Laura Jean 2 comments
Topics: Baby, Bradycardia, NICU, PDA, phototherapy, Preemies, Ventilator


