Right now I am sitting at The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf sipping the most scrumptious latte... all by myself. It feels like paradise. Bliss, I tell you. The truth is, this mama does her best when she's had a healthy dose of solitude from the rest of the world. A break to breathe. To close her eyes and reflect. To remember why. To seek the Father and let go of all she holds too tightly. And to ponder old memories.

Memories such as those sweet days just after we brought Benjamin home from the hospital. We would go to my favorite Japanese Starbucks and I would catch a single hour of outside contact and reading while that little 5-pound boy slept soundly in his carseat. I did that nearly everday, and it was healing to my soul.

I'm not sure that will be a luxury I can afford this next go-round, so I'll just have to hold tight to its memory.

LJ